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So with Mom's very fast death, I've had alot on my mind. She was so ill and unable to breathe at the end there that her final breath was a real relief for her. It was painful to watch her trying to breath. With my very pragmatic siblings making the decisions, Mom's house went on the market a few days later. And sold. Suffice it to say, i t has been alot to process in a very short amount of time; our heads are spinning. In the meantime, as we are all being called on to figure out what to do with Mom's things, I started thinking about the things that Jerry and I own.   Our estate. We truly have alot of shit. Closets, garage, basement, spare rooms, storage rooms... The thought of our kids going through our boxes of shit, looking at each other with quizzical looks, sniggering, pointing to the trash container, and rightfully pitching our shit has been keeping me up at night. I immediately got busy. I've already emptied four boxes of papers into recycling. In going throug...

Everybody's got goals. One of mine is to be Bad Ass. I spent dang near fifty years wanting to be a Good Girl and I've found that pursuit to be completely disappointing and dull and not even the slightest bit rewarding. I've decided to change my entire approach to life and to become Bad Ass! It's going to be a journey because I still have Good Girl baggage to shed. I still want people to like me. I still want to be considered Nice . I'm not good at voicing dissenting opinions. I can't post things on Facebook that are unpopular or that some might consider bitchy . I definitely can't spout uninformed opinions without doing the research. And I know some people who have very very inaccurate images of me because they have gotten their information from other people and I can not and will not address their misconceptions. I'm 53 Years Old!!!!!!! I can do this. I can break these milquetoast habi ... erm, personality traits and I can take the risks and...

15 In this meaningless life of mine I have seen both of these: the righteous perishing in their righteousness, and the wicked living long in their wickedness. 16 Do not be overrighteous, neither be overwise— why destroy yourself? ( Ecclesiastes 7:15-16) .   It's an incredibly exciting thing, this one , meaningless life of yours. (Tim Minchin) . . Although this bit from Ecclesiastes suggests that our lives are meaningless, unless I'm taking that out of context, it is clear to me that my life is meaningful. I was talking to someone the other day about L ife. That's Life with a capital L. We were generally astonished that life exists at all, astonished that the tissue inside of our head can rememb...

There are no theists in foxholes is a saying used to argue that during extreme stress or fear all people will believe in or wish for or hope for a higher power, and as such, there are no real atheists. Well I beg to differ. Strenuously. We must realize that sayings of this sort are actually designed by believers to strengthen the believers' stance rather than to truly suggest anything about nonbelievers. It is meant to suggest that there are actually no atheists for nonbelievers would finally accept the deity of choice during times of extreme trauma or stress. While I, on the other hand, find the whole idea truly repugnant. To suggest that a rational being would suddenly embrace religious dogma while under stress is such nonsense.  This week I am sitting at the death bed of my mother who is dying of stage 4 pancreatic cancer, leukemia, and COPD. It is absolutely horrible. Mom has so many friends who love her and who have been here visiting all week. Everyone is praying all over th...